Tuesday, September 16, 2003
@ 10:42pm
| Entry no.330 | emo-tional....
||   mood    ..... I haven't got a mood.   ||
||   music    "He's everything (you want)" - Vertical Horizon   ||

... the same song's been playing for the past hour. The lyrics are just reminding me of... "stuff". ((sighs))

Bugger and damnation. The novelty of my current life situation has worn off. Blasted thoughts and serious overkill of the emotions, has left me drained and blissfully numb. I've got nothing to amuse me now. Pondering... what's next? What else is in store?

Oh well. Thinking's what got me into this mess in the first place. That's it brain, I'm shutting you off. Say bye-bye. You're getting turned to automatic girly-mode.

Work... well, I'm going to complain as usual. I hated it. I go home every night with a pounding headache, only to listen to people complain about how their life is so hard. Sheesh lady, you're not the one opening and closing every night. ((grumbles)) I work 7 days a week, 11 hours a day... you work 6 days and about 8 hours. Shush already! I need to kick her butt... but I don't think I'm allowed to beat up my own mummy. Teehee.

I'm definitely counting down the days until I'm back home. What I'll do when I get back there, that remains to be seen. Damnit, I need set plans, because I plan on spending as little time home as possible. I need to party up my two days home. Oh! Since Kare'll be home, I might go out with her one of the days, but who knows? She'll be all busy with her many guys. I don't get how that happened. All of a sudden, I've got no guys and Kare's got like all of Philly in her pocket. I'm just jealous, I guess. Every single girl I know, all of a sudden has a guy who they're crazy for, and me. Well, I'm just crazy. Just too damned fickle! Because I'm over here, I'm not in constant contact with anyone, and the little line, "out of sight, out of mind" really does apply to me. Ha, I'll just tell myself to focus on one particular guy, and make myself be all about him. Only question is... who? It's not going to be Pat, the poor guy's been driving me nuts. Always with the IMing and the prying and the blah blah blah'ing. Quite frankly, I'm sorry I ever kissed the guy. Hm. That was mean. Oh well, just being honest. I won't ever hang out or see him again.

Hm. I've got new things to keep me occupied again. I'm looking through source codes for Livejournals and seeing if I transfer them to Blurty. Hopefully, I can. I probably can. It's been ages since I've looked at coding, let's just hope that I can still work my way around them.

For the layout, I'm seriously leaning towards Kittie, unfortunately... there are no decent graphics featuring them. Every one that I've seen are hazy and well, crappy. So, if anyone sees any semidecent graphics featuring Kittie, please send them to my email, anqelic_x_fantasiez@yahoo.com. I'm going to go search the web for some pictures now. <33 toodles

unburden your soul  ( memory/edit )

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dwelling in the memory of:: September 16th, 2003
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