Thursday, September 11, 2003 @ 01:18am | Entry no.317 | yet more things that make me smile.. ||   mood    sick   || ||   music    Chasing Amy dialogue   || Work sucked big time. Mummy dearest found my tattoo. I found it kind of funny what she said. "Not a person who looks like a person, looks like a ghoul, make money and do these kind of things, what kind of children have I raised?" It's a lot funnier when it's in chinese. Oops. Wait til she sees the navel ring and my next tattoo. I wound up sleeping at work. Weird. I just sat there.. and slowly nodded off. When I woke up, John was passed out. Work is BORING. Thankfully, we got out relatively early, and we went to the mall. I got my hair cut. Well, trimmed and angled really. My hair's not going to get any shorter. It's going to be long and prettiful. I got scents too. Two of em. CK one, and Tommy. It brings back memories, but it also made my poor little wallet sad. It only has the random bills in there. No moneys. Tomorrow, it'll be all full again. Hopefully. I wound up shopping at American Eagle Outfitters. Trendy. Eep. It was only tshirts. Now I just need the long sleeve undershirt, so it won't be as trendy.Who am I kidding? I'll still be trendy. I have chains on my pants. They're pretty too. Lots of things are pretty. Like my Chadwick. He's DAMN pretty. He'll be working in New Brunswick, NJ. Maybe I can sway him to come over a few nights, so that we'll be able to play 13 cards and cuddle. Cuddling with Chadwick would be awesome; he smells so yummie! I do that a lot. When I hug people, I smell them right at the neck. Weird, yes, I know. But I always do that. I kind of wish I knew scent Britton wore, because I really liked it. lol. Soap and something else that I've never been able to figure out. Chadwick smells awesome. Acgua di Gio and CK one... good choices. Ah. lol. Cute comment left on my Xanga: "hey babez... life is better now, im kinda over with that whole "emo phase" as everyone calls it... im just gonna lay back and let u strap m.... wait... others can read... lol... im gonna relax and let life go... just go wit the flow... play it by ear... BTW, i told u that ud end up smiling... i love u girl, and u gotta member im not leavin u behind... lol..." Gosh... what a doll, my Billy-called-Billiam is. As for more messages... Brian texted me again tonight, "God I want you. I want you so bad it just kills me". Erm. Yeah. Right. He's probably drunk. There's no point to him telling that, since he's all the way in Alabama, and it's not like I'll see him anytime soon. ((wonders)) What could he be up to though? Tricky, tricky that one. Anyways, tired now, and I should probably try and watch one of my many movies that I bought since I first came to Jersey. I'm weird. I buy them.. and let them sit there. And rather than watch them, I'll just run out and pick more up, which makes the stack grow higher. I think I can build something out of it now. Argh, I've got another doctor's appointment to add to the list. September 19th. Too many people poking at me, goshdarnit! And NOT in the fun way. ((grins like a madwoman)) I just read the comment Billy left on my last blurty entry. Such an adorable kid. Oops. Kid. Ha. Sorry. I sort of want him to be younger, only because I want to get in trouble. I have this weird thing about wanting to get in trouble with the law. Not anything serious, but something silly I can look back on and laugh. Most likely, I'll get busted for sex in a public place. Oops. I said that I would go and watch movies... but since Billy came on, I think I'll end this and go talk to him, the cutie-pie that he is. <33 toodles unburden your soul  ( memory/edit )

Thursday, September 11, 2003 @ 02:30am | Entry no.319 | late night non sequiturs ||   mood    confused   || [[note]] I'm going to listen to my Chadwick's advice. Focus on the precious, and bugger to everything else. If I'm happy, who cares what's making me happy. I'm really going to bed now, with a smile of course, because Billy-called-Billiam's a darling, and he worries since I'm 2 years older and I worry because I'm starting to like him. I hate dealing with emotions. Things get all confusing. Maybe things are confusing because it's late. Yes. It's because it's late. I'm going to bed. <33 toodles. I [heart] you, my precious Billy-called-Billiam. I [heart] you, very much. unburden your soul  ( memory/edit )

Thursday, September 11, 2003 @ 10:54pm | Entry no.320 | really short entry. Oh so stuffy. My head hurts. I want to shower, and unfortunately, it's my turn to clean the bathroom. Bugger. I also need to make my hair all pretty. Ew. I've got to go now, but there's this funny funny conversation that I had with Brian. I got called a pretenious [sp] cunt. Lovely. I'll post it later. <33 toodles unburden your soul  ( memory/edit )