:: ver. 4.o |_____.:| il y a mais un amour pour moi // there is but [one] love for me |:.____

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name_ Nancy
aliases_ anqelic, *geek* to my brat
age_ 19 years old
sex_ gurLe
local_ Philadelphia, PA statz_ stealing all the man-whores, he-bitches, and boy-t0ys I can my hands on, but only looking not touching because my sweetie says not to
nationality_ chinese and vietnamese

I am... nerdy // emo to the core // ever so pretty in pink // goth like whoa // punk loving // raving psycho without the drugs // brainy but lacking in common sense // different in that way where you don't know HOW to talk to me // graceful yet oh-so-clumsy // spontaneous // charming // stubborn // bratty // childlike yet mature // endearing // bored // sleepy // in love but never loved // jaded // cynical // bitter // short // spunky // crazed // devious // horny // a walking contradiction // bipolar // straight with weird fetishes // lazy // into BDSM a little too much // blissfully content with being single // cuddly // pudgy like a "mofo" // loner // 9th year flutist // an artist // a writer // 3rd year violinist // a performer

I enjoy... talking to my Chadwick // with completely random with virtual strangers // giving assholes verbal lashings when they deserve it // reading // designing webpages // writing // listening to music // performing music // kissing and other stuff // daydreaming // playing on the playground // chatting // flirting // drawing // performing live for people // helping people out // playing with my baby THOMAS! // being with my sweetie <33

My favorite books are... "The Godfather" by Mario Puzo // "A tree grows in Brooklyn" by Betty Smith // "Love, Remember Me" by Bertice Small // "Chances" by Jackie Collins // "The Kitchen God's Wife" by Amy Tan // Harry Potter Series, by J. K. Rowlings // The Phantom Tollbooth by Norton Juster // "Romeo and Juliet " by William Shakespeare // Zen and the Art of Motorcyle Maintenance by Robert Pirsig // The Diary of a Teenage Girl by Phoebe Glockner // Trainspotting by Irvine Welsh

My favorite movies... Snatch // The Godfather I and II // Bridget Jones' Diary // Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets // Harry Potter and the Sorcerers' Stone // Se7en // Nightmare on Elm Street // Lock, Stock and Two Smoking Barrels // The Matrix // Clerks // Chasing Amy // Braveheart // Fight Club // Twelve Monkeys // Die Hard // Face/Off // Philadelphia // High Fidelity // Catch me if you can

4 "How can I exist without you" - Shame by Stabbing westward

4 "When we hold each other, in the darkness, it doesn't make the darkness go away. The bad things are still out there. The nightmares still walking. When we hold each other we feel not safe, but better.'It's all right' we whisper, 'I'm here, I love you.' and we lie: 'I'll never leave you.' For just a moment or two the darkness doesn't seem so bad. " Neil Gaiman. (For some reason, my ex always comes to mind when I think of this quote)

4 Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it oepns up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love. - Neil Gaiman.

4 "Love is giving someone the power to completely destroy you yet trusting them not to."

4 "Choose life. Choose a job. Choose a career. Choose a family. Choose a fucking big television. Choose washing machines, cars, compact disc players and electrical tin openers...choose DIY and wondering who the fuck you are on a Sunday morning. Choose sitting on that couch watching mind-numbing, spirit crushing game shows, stuffing junk food into your mouth. Choose rotting away at the end of it all, pushing your last in a miserable home, nothing more than an embarrassment to the selfish, fucked up brats you spawned to replace yourself. Choose a future. Choose life. But why would I want to do a thing like that?" - Renton, Trainspotting

4 "If the people we love are stolen from us, the way to have them live on is to never stop loving them. Buildings burn. People die. But real love lives forever. "- Sarah, The Crow

4 oo1. Basic black and white anime (overrides)
4 oo2. Black and blue anime (overrides)
4 oo3. Seraphim (anime) pastels (overrides)
4 oo4. Gothic Catherdral - done in blues and greys
4 oo5. Marilyn Manson- Man that you fear - First layout designed by me (overrides and styles)
4 oo6. The Crow with lyrics from "Bring me to life" by Evanescence
4 oo7. The Crow with lyrics from "Hollow" by Epsilon-Zero
4 oo8. Evanescence background in light blue
4 oo9. Linkin Park layout with Easier to run lyrics
4 o1o. Linkin Park, my first real style
4 o11. Parasite Eve style, black and blue
4 o12. Nadesico style, grey and blues